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Time:11:54 pm
I'm supposed to be packing and taking a shower. I'm goin to see Gary tomorrow, but I'm lazy. I'm broke, seriously I only have .40 cents until like Saturday. How come this keyboard doesn't have a symbol for 'cents'? Are all keyboards like that? That's really weird. Anyway I'm excited, it kinda sucks though cuz I know I'm gonna be real tired cuz David has a dentist appt. tomorrow morning at 9:30. Oh well.
Frosty is gone, he went to Florida and now Jay is leaving. Must be nice to get offered more money somewhere else.
My bday is Monday, yay for me. I wonder if Gary is planning anything, I doubt it. He never has before and I know his jobless ass doesn't have any money. But anyway, hah Blue's Traveler.
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Subject:Billy and Mandy are cool
Time:08:58 pm
Current Mood:crankycranky
Do you ever wish you could take everything you ever said away and start over? I am so there today, it's a bullshit day, I don't know why but today just sucks.
So anyway I haven't talked to the boyfriend in like 2 days, oh well. Sometimes I feel like we're just using each other to escape everyone else. Maybe that's the way it's supposed to be about, I dunno, I do love him lots though.
I feel so old, it's only 9pm and I'm ready for bed. What happened to me? Least I don't have to work tomorrow, I feel like rearanging my room tomorrow, actually I don't really feel like it but I think I'm gonna anyway.
I left all my CDs an hour away, it sucks, I miss them alot.
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Time:07:19 pm
Current Mood:soresore
Well, it's been awhile. Gary finally got out, but he's staying an hour away from me. Maybe he'll start over and make a good life for himself away from all those bad influences. Hopefully I'll be moving in with him here in about a month. I sent an IM to Gary which turned out to be his mama instead haha oops, oh well.
I had out patient surgery today for my creeping cancer, which by the way I'm sick of explaining to everyone, so needless to say I'm kinda drugged up right now. I should probably lay down and rest.
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Time:05:56 pm
Current Mood:lazylazy
So I was at work and Frosty decides to throw a 75 ft. water hose at my head, nothing unusual until he asks me for a rock, hah. Some people..
Mo and Christy seem to be having martial problem through me which isn't fair cuz she was mine first, well I thought she was until Ron told me he was 'gonna fucking kill me' for taking her away which is awkward coming from a 60 somethin year old man.
I've been hit on by so many damn woman lately I'm thinking I might as well switch sides. Sex is sex, right?
My admistrative mgr. is also a cop, you know how fucking scary that is for someone like me?
I need to get laid, soon.
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Time:08:58 pm
Current Mood:crappycrappy
I am so sunburnt, it sucks. I went to Outback with the family today, drank Midori and got a little tipsy. I've had a bad feeling all week, I hate that, b/c something usually does happen I just never know what. Grr. Well, my money order went through but Gary hasn't called yet, too bad I can't call him to tell him he can call me now. I really don't have that much to say, I'm lonely today and I need to clean my room. I wish I could just go out with some friends and get wasted or something. I'm closing all week this week and they're training me at Customer Service, Charles decided he was gonna keep me part-time, but at least I won't get laid off this fall. I want it to rain, I want my own house, my own car, my own life. I want Gary back now I need his hugs. I need to open another checking account, I need to go to the doctor. Today I feel like crying and feeling sorry for myself, I feel like a BudLight. I feel alone and unattatched from everything, everyone. I feel bad about something but I don't know what. I'm gonna get in the shower now.
(Maybe I will never be
All the things that I'd like to be
Now is not the time to cry
Now's the time to find out why
I think you're the same as me
We see things they'll never see
You and I are gonna live forever)
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Subject:yo momma
Time:11:19 pm
Current Mood:weirdweird
My stomach hurts :( damn Taco Bell. I spent way too much goddamned money today, I always feel bad after I spend too much but I deserve it every now and then, right? I am so broke and I just got paid, haha, I'm so stupid. I'll never afford a house at this rate, or another car. Somebody buy my damn truck, please.
(get money
fuck bitches)
-'lil wayne-
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Time:11:48 pm
Current Mood:irritatedirritated
I really don't have that much to say, I'm bored and I'm tired, and I really need to dye my hair but I'm too lazy. I closed the Return Desk tonight, no fun. Kat came in the store, I didn't reconize her until she said Scooby, I wanted to vomit, I'm trying to get away from those goddamned people. Ugh, I'm so irritated. I get paid tomorrow so hopefully I'll be talking to Gary soon. Well, apparently my boobies are bigger than the rest of my body, according to Vicki and Louis likes my tattoo, go figure, dirty old man. I think someone stole a chainsaw, so Mike yelled at Jeremy, haha. I get to see Melissa tomorrow, yay. I think I'm goin shopping tomorrow, why not, I can't save money while I'm still paying my mom back anyway.
(Truly thought I could make it right
If I kissed you one more time to
Help you face the nightmare
But you're far too poisoned for me
Such a fool to think that I can wake you from your slumber
That I could actually heal you..)
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Time:08:34 pm
Current Mood:blahblah
I'm waiting on it to get dark, we're doing 4th of July tonight so we don't have to do anything tomorrow. I'm so damn tired, I worked 9 hours today. I'm predicting 11 accidents and at least 2 deaths this year due to fireworks in my area. I've already been hit in the forehead with a bottle rocket, fun stuff.
Damnit I'm so tired I don't even wanna do fireworks tonight.
I haven't talked to Gary since the 19th of June, he tried to call the cell phone but I can't talk to him until I prepay, such a pain in the ass.
Well I guess I'm gonna take a shower and hopefully by the time I get out it'll be dark enough to do fireworks so I can go to bed.
(I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you)
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Current Music:Khia
Time:12:01 am
Current Mood:stressedstressed
Gary is pissed b/c I sent a letter without his inmate number so it didn't get to him and they sent it back so now he's wondering what the fuck is up. Since I keep getting accused of being with other people then why don't I just do it?
When Gary gets out I wanna get the hell out of here, move to another state, just me, him, and David and start all over. Brittany and Mike are in Catoosa for manufactering sittin there without a bond, they got what they deserved too, haha.
(Don't worry bout him or his jewels man
You make him sweat dubs on your shit as
You ride by music high as hell too
He watching you lusting with his bitch you
Smile at him nod at him keep riding
You see him later cause he wanna stop by when
He sees you off the chain looking good too
You even got his bitch wanna freak you)
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Current Music:Shinedown -In Memory
Time:12:43 am
Some of the ugliest things took the longest time to make
And some of the easiest habits are the hardest one's to break
And I'm not asking for value nor the pain but I am asking
For a way out of this lie
Because I can't wait for you to catch up with me
And I can't live in the past and drown myself in memories
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