I'm very tired, and I've been in a bad mood all day. Aaron and I are still cool, for those who might care, but he hasn't called me tonight :( shit happens. In general I'm happy and proud of myself for thinking things through this time.
I did call Tommy the other night, but Aaron 'gave me a talking to' and I never called Tommy back like I told him I would :). It was just so weird hearing someone say the same things to me that I told Gary over and over. I haven't heard from him in a couple of days, it's so hard to let go of someone you've known for so long, someone who was your best friend and your boyfriend. I don't think I'll ever let go completely, I can't. I'm just rolling with things, being careful. I'm not used to that, I'm used to being straight up and wanting to know what's going on. I guess I need to be my own rock this time.
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