How do you tell your friend that you're in love with him? You don't, you fucking suffer and bite your tongue everytime you almost say it. How do you not get your feelings hurt at the person who doesn't know that you're in love with when they don't call you back? You don't, you pretend that it's cool cuz you're 'just friends'. How do you let that person know you miss them without scaring them or making things complicated? You don't, you just hope they know. How can you keep from over analyzing kisses on the forehead and being called 'baby'? Someone, please answer that. I want to grab him and just say 'look, I'm in love with you, if you don't feel the same we have to stop this b/c it's fucking with my head.' And I'm scared cuz I don't wanna lose a friend. After Valentine's Day, if nothing goes down, something has to be said before I go crazy.
Well, yay for Gary and his new 'girlfriend/family/house/life' bullshit that some bitch decided to text msg. me abt. starting some drama b/c I needed a friend to talk to and I picked him. My fucking bad. Let's not bring up the last 3 fucking years that I carried HIM.
Why can't you just imagine the perfect life and it fall into your lap? Why does everything have to be complicated and full of drama? I don't regret anything I've done but I regret things I should have done. How do you add things to your past?
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